Um. Yeah.

No title again.  Sorry. 

So, I'm not necessarily saying I'm retiring this blog because who knows when that urge to grab my chainsaw and shred some TBMs might pop up, but I'm going to "refer" you to my "other" blog.  My "other" blog has been neglected for months and months because that was the blog I used to keep in touch with my family and friends (all TBMs, mind you).  Naturally, I had little to no desire to update them on the details of my life because most of the time I simply wanted to poke their eyeballs out because of the part they played in my indoctrination within the church.  Now that the anger, resentment, and fits of hysteria have more or less died down, I kind of figured it's time to move on and make an attempt at normalcy (or my version of it, anyway) and get back to keeping in touch with my family and friends via that blog.

Here's the link:  http://kellisdetourahead.blogspot.com/

I've made a few entries in the last couple of days, one of which explained to everyone the fact that I resigned from the church (see the entry entitled "Time to come clean, I guess").  I just needed to get it out there and deal with the consequences.  My parents haven't read it yet. I know that because I haven't received a phone call.  I will, though.  I've got one of those feelings.

Anyways, read the other blog at your own risk.  I can only promise extreme boredom, but I'd love for you to stick with me for the support. :)

P.S.
If you're an axe murder or serial rapist (or something along those lines) and you choose to hassle me via my blog, I'll hunt you down and you'll find yourself begging for death when I find you...just so you know.  :)

The Anger is Gone

My anger's just gone.  It has been for a while.  Sure, I run into a comment or a memory or whatever every now and then that brings back the pain and anger and feelings of betrayal, but I've gotten to the point where my past is my past and I don't want it to ruin my present anymore.  It's neat to be at the point where I can say that and really mean it.

My new philosphy, something that I've been working on actively, is simply to "live and let live."  That's, of course, not to say that my new motto is "roll over and play dead," though.  I get plenty of practice walking that delicate line with my oldest daughter, who is still very much in love with the church.  ;)

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Couldn't think of a title...

You know what?  I'm getting DAMN TIRED of waiting to get into the RN program.  It took me 2 years to finish up my pre-reqs and co-reqs for the program.  I put in my application a year ago.  Now, it looks my turn to get in won't roll around until the spring of next year.  The wait list when I turned in my application was 18 months, but due to some position cuts, they aren't  admitting as many applicants in the fall as they had planned on.  Thus, I continue to wait patiently and age.  In the meantime, I need to continue taking a minute of 6 credits so that I can defer financial aid repayment...and I've all but run out of interesting/applicable courses to take.

Woe is me.  I know.  Life could be a lot worse.  Hell, it's BEEN a lot worse. ;)